There’s an internal struggle going on deep within each person living with a mental issue. It’s so simple and basic yet so difficult to understand at times. When a storm begins brewing these emotions grow deep and strong.
We want one to win out over the other but usually the one that does win is not the one we want. Deep inside we are screaming which we want yet those screams rarely reach the surface. We are left spiraling deeper into our own personal abyss.
We sabotage ourselves by saying we just want to be left alone. Nothing could be further from the truth. We are at our most vulnerable when we make this request. We truly believe that if we are left alone no one can hurt us. But we hurt ourselves more than anyone else ever could.
Like a static electricity charge, our emotions build up with each passing moment. Just like when you touch something that charge is released, it’s the same when we have human contact. A hand resting on our arm, sliding back and forth across our back, or even fingertips holding fingertips, this contact helps to discharge our build up.
A hug will often work best but sadly, we will shrug it off. Do not take this personal, it’s not us but our demons lashing out, wanting to drag us down into that abyss deep within our soul. We must do battle with this demon and no one else can do it for us.
It’s always easier to fight our demons with someone by our side rather than watching from a distance. Never leave us alone, no matter how hard we roar.
For those who do not have these issues I know it seems so easy to say, “Stay,” but those words can not escape our lips, no matter how hard we try. Just because we do not utter the word does not mean we want you to go away. Never leave us alone.