There’s an internal struggle going
on deep within each person living with a mental issue. It’s so simple and basic yet so difficult to
understand at times. When a storm begins
brewing these emotions grow deep and strong.
We want one to win out over the
other but usually the one that does win is not the one we want. Deep inside we are screaming which we want
yet those screams rarely reach the surface.
We are left spiraling deeper into our own personal abyss.
We sabotage ourselves by saying we
just want to be left alone. Nothing
could be further from the truth. We are
at our most vulnerable when we make this request. We truly believe that if we are left alone no
one can hurt us. But we hurt ourselves more
than anyone else ever could.
Like a static electricity charge,
our emotions build up with each passing moment.
Just like when you touch something that charge is released, it’s the
same when we have human contact. A hand
resting on our arm, sliding back and forth across our back, or even fingertips
holding fingertips, this contact helps to discharge our build up.
A hug will often work best but
sadly, we will shrug it off. Do not take
this personal, it’s not us but our demons lashing out, wanting to drag us down into
that abyss deep within our soul. We must
do battle with this demon and no one else can do it for us.
It’s always easier to fight our
demons with someone by our side rather than watching from a distance. Never leave us alone, no matter how hard we
roar.
For those who do not have these
issues I know it seems so easy to say, “Stay,” but those words can not escape
our lips, no matter how hard we try. Just
because we do not utter the word does not mean we want you to go away. Never leave us alone.
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